Meet Personal Expectations

I'm starting to lose my sense of responsibility. I guess, after last semester, I'm tired of being relied on. I've been spending my time gaming, hanging with my bf, going to the park, working very little (and still resenting the fact that I have to go), dreading rehearsals, and not doing chores. Most of me is very upset by my attitude, but a small part is still relishing in the absolutely blissful, boringness of it. When I'm not musical, I'm not productive. I'm hoping that once my band gets back into regular practices and recording, I'll shape up. Then I'll practice more, want to sing more, and hopefully enjoy life more. I can't lose my productivity right before my transfer. I can't be tired of working. I have goals to meet.

Lists

I've decided to start eating healthier and get back into exercising regularly. I've been really tired for no reason, and I've determined that it has largely to do with my eating habits and lack of exercise, especially considering my body's familiarity with exercise. I need it. And I need to stop drinking Red Bull :D So I've started making lists of things I want to work on, and I'm going to tackle one or two at a time in order of priority (or whichever the hell I want to do first).

Here's the list as of now:

-take salsa classes
-eat healthier
-exercise more
-consider an exercise circuit
-quit red bull altogether (in levels)
-read more
-stop hitting
-play WoW again (don't judge me)
-stop playing Tetris so much
-practice trombone more
-practice cello more
-get a more reliable job
-sing more
-write music more

:D

Backwash

Am I inspired? Not particularly. For some reason, I think, when you don't sleep well for an extended period AND your life is a-OK, you tend not to have any reason or desire to write or create anything beautiful. You slip into this world of zombie numbness and are left with the responsibility of finding the way out all by yourself. The problem is that, once you've found that way out, you realize that you need to write or create something beautiful in order to walk through the gateway, back to the real world.